Saturday, January 15, 2011
No Resurrection Without Death
I'm terminally sentimental. It's part of what makes me, me. :)
I removed all the decorations and lights, thanking her for the beauty she had bestowed upon our home over the past months. I apologized as the needles rained, still fragrant, to the carpet. And then she was bare, and I was weeping.
No, I don't worship nature.
No, I don't believe the trees have spirits - no matter how fond I am of Narnia.
"This isn't about the tree," I heard a whisper say.
I've been on a path for awhile now - a journey to heal, to overcome. They are wounds I'd grown strong enough to forgive but still fear. And I have come to see what I've felt for much of my life was strength is really just a stronghold - and not my own at that.
So in recent days God has made two things very clear: 1. Some battles are won only in prayer and fasting and 2. There is no resurrection without death (John 12:24-25).
The battle of "dying to ourselves" is one we often feel we've fought. (Ya win some; ya lose some.) But I'm realizing with gravity it is one I am not fighting often enough - at least not as often as the Spirit would desire, which is moment by moment.
And so through tears, on my knees, tenderly brushing the brittle spindles of a dead pine tree I realized, "I am pre-grieving the 'death' of me." - again, and yet I feel, more profoundly this time.
To be honest, I'm a little fearful at what He's calling me to. A) Because I can't SEE that far (thanks!) and B) Because any kind of death is painful in some form. There is no such thing as spiritual morphine.
But I am also hopeful - because I would rather walk in resurrection than simply in a life I understand and think is under control. It's a beautiful call - to be like Him - even if our cross is only spiritual. Of course, the cross must be faced in spirit before we could ever carry it physically.
What about you? Are you living in the death of a life you've found or are you losing your life so that you can be found in Him?
Is there something Christ is calling you to die to? Let me know. We can pray for each other.
Some months ago my friend, Abby shared this song with me. She said, "It will make you cry." Oh, so many times, Abby, so many times. :) It has become part of my prayer. I pray it draws you toward the pursuit of new life.
Show Me (Audrey Assad) (I like to see the lyrics; hope it's not a distraction :)
Much love,
Tammi
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Pleasing God or Men?
Galatians 1
1Paul, an apostle—sent not from men nor by man, but by Jesus Christ and God the Father, who raised him from the dead— 2and all the brothers with me,
To the churches in Galatia:
3Grace and peace to you from God our Father and the Lord Jesus Christ, 4who gave himself for our sins to rescue us from the present evil age, according to the will of our God and Father, 5to whom be glory for ever and ever. Amen.
I love how Paul states who he is. He doesn't claim authority in himself or from any religious person or sect. His authority is grounded in Christ and God. Then, I love how he goes on to further establish who CHRIST is, not who HE is, and how he continues to point through Christ back to God - an important detail as most of the book will be a pleading with the Galatians to remember their salvation comes through Christ and not the law.
No Other Gospel
6I am astonished that you are so quickly deserting the one who called you by the grace of Christ and are turning to a different gospel— 7which is really no gospel at all. Evidently some people are throwing you into confusion and are trying to pervert the gospel of Christ. 8But even if we or an angel from heaven should preach a gospel other than the one we preached to you, let him be eternally condemned! 9As we have already said, so now I say again: If anybody is preaching to you a gospel other than what you accepted, let him be eternally condemned!10Am I now trying to win the approval of men, or of God? Or am I trying to please men? If I were still trying to please men, I would not be a servant of Christ.
You either love Paul or you wanna smack him. He doesn't mince words. But that can be refreshingly uncomfortable. When we remember that gospel means "good news," his words are almost funny. "...turning to a different good news - which is really not good news at all." Later he'll get into the specifics of law versus grace, and really lay out which one brings hope and which leads to death.
Read verse 8 - "Even if we or an angel from heaven... let him be eternally condemned!" And he repeats it. Repetition in scripture - and this era of writing - was indicative of strong conviction and emotion. If he had been speaking to them, he'd have been pounding the pulpit and red-faced. :)
The section ends with him revisiting the Source of his purpose. It's not about him, or any religious group... it is about pleasing Christ.
The question I walk away with is this... Am I trying to win the approval of men? Or of God?
Asking questions requires thought - it calls our hearts, minds and sometimes bodies to action. Even in asking this question, Paul illustrates the difference between the law and faith in Christ. The law judged actions, but it could not purify the heart.
Jeremiah is prophesying about the covenant that will come through Christ - and referring to the law had already been given. He talks about writing his law on the people's hearts. That is what Christ came to do - to put God's heart in our heart. And that is what the question asks... is my heart for God? or for man? I'm thankful God wants to engage our hearts, aren't you? Keep fighting the battle. Pray without ceasing. You are called. You are needed. Love, Tam P.S. Trusting Jesus doesn't mean the law is extinct. To study what Jesus said about the law and how He came to fulfill it, check out these places in the Bible. Matthew 12:1-14 Matthew 5Jeremiah 31:32-33
It will not be like the covenant I made with their forefathers when I took them by the hand to lead them out of Egypt, because they broke my covenant, though I was a husband to them," declares the Lord. "This covenant I will make with the house of Israel after that time," declares the Lord. "I will put my law in their minds and write it on their hearts. I will be their God, and they will be my people."